As seen from Sky City, the Space Needle restaurant. |
My
ambitions border on arrogance. And my passport is stamped with too many
crossings between the two.
When
I read theology, I long to have the hours to pursue, prepare, and present my
own perspectives. When I see Christians in conflict I want to step in to resolve
the core issues and reconcile their relationships. When I sit with the dying, I
wish that more families would accept the spiritual care facilitation and
counseling that our Hospice offers. When I preach, teach, visit, and counsel at
The Glenburn Community Church, I simply want to be the best pastor ever. When I
interact with those who are employed full-time in death education, bereavement
intervention, and grief counseling (part of my work in Thanatology—the study of
death, dying, bereavement, grief, and mourning), I strongly desire to keep
current on the research and its implications for my doctoral program. (Which
reminds me: I also want to be the most scholarly, pastoral, culturally-engaged,
relevant and deeply spiritual Christ-follower Multnomah Biblical Seminary has
ever seen.) And when I spend Thanksgiving surrounded by the ten people I love
most in this world, I want to be attentive, loving, patient, generous, kind,
and especially not distracted by whether I remembered to print out the bulletin
inserts for Sunday, or whether I can sanction my guests for putting powdered
caramel-vanilla creamer in 100% Kona coffee. (So, let’s not ask how that worked
out for me, okay? I really am sorry I said anything.)
This was our duck for the day. |
Here’s
what brought these competing, overlapping, and exhausting pursuits to a head
recently.
In
the course of two master’s degrees, I actually had to take the same course
twice. I was blessed by two vastly different sets of content (Major Prophets in
one, post-exilic Minor Prophets in the other), taught by two eminently
qualified Old Testament scholars (Dr. Mark Boda and Dr. Bruce Baloian—real
experts: as in, these guys write commentaries, etc.). Now, in my first
assignment as a “real” seminary professor (I’ve been guest-lecturer and
co-instructor at Multnomah, but now I’m “the professor of record” for my alma
mater, A.W. Tozer Theological Seminary.), I am teaching a similar class. “Old
Testament: Kings and Prophets” (OTK&P) is a course I am uniquely suited to
teach, but having studied under Boda and Baloian, I wish I had another
master’s, or even just an article or two published in JSOT (The Journal for the
Study of the Old Testament). I don’t. Nor will I. My Hebrew skills are not
the reason I’m teaching OTK&P, and I think it will be a better experience
for my students as a result. But I still wish there was time to jot a few notes
for JSOT, just the same.
Offering easy single-file loading. |
In
the midst of all this, here’s how a duck helps me keep my sanity, despite my
arrogant ambitions.
In
2009, as part of our twenty-fifth anniversary vacation (finally taking us where
our honeymoon trip was supposed to have, instead of the Kaiser
Hospital in San
Diego—another story for another time), my wife and I spent a couple
of days in Seattle
before embarking on an Alaskan cruise. There in Seattle, to get the quickest tourist-oriented
overview (and in honor of my wife’s long-held attraction to all things
“rubber-duck”), we “rode the ducks” at a business unsurprisingly named “Ride
the Ducks.” Piloted by Captain Credible (“Please, use my full name: Justin Credible.”) We toured Seattle in an amphibious World War II landing craft,
including a plunge into and cruise past the sights of Lake Union.
The major difference between the equally fascinating land and sea portions of
the voyage? On Lake
Union, we weren’t holding
up traffic.
You
see, Sparkman & Stephens are competent marine architects. They make good
boats. GMC makes reasonably useful trucks, and did so especially during WWII.
The result of their collaboration, the DUKW six-wheel-drive amphibious truck
(more information here: http://www.ridetheducksofseattle.com/history.htm), was
described by Roderic Stephens, Jr. (Yes, one of those Stephenses.) this way: “She’s not very fast, but she’s better
in water than any truck, and she’ll beat any boat on a highway.”
Captain Credible drives (not too) deep into Lake Union. |
During
our tour through Seattle, we saw no other trucks
on Lake Union. There were no other boats
cruising along the streets and highways. But I can imagine that Mr. Stephens’
assessment is accurate.
Is
it possible to be the best Conservative Evangelical pastor among the
Thanatology and Hospice communities? The fact is, there’s not a lot of
competition there. Is it possible to be the best Thanatologist among
Conservative Evangelical pastors? If my experience is any indicator, then I’m
alone in that endeavor. So, instead of trying to out-scholar McGrath, Carson,
Erickson, Witherington, Wright, and others, or out-thanatologize Doka, Worden,
Rando, Klass, Neimeyer, the Corrs, or anyone else—can I simply accept who I’ve
been made to be, and do what I can uniquely provide to each group I’m called to
serve? Yes, probably. But only to the extent that I accept the expertise and
experience of others, and the privilege of communicating their excellent work between
those two communities.
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